I Ate Meat

Yes.... I ate red meat on Good Friday.

BUT    before you judge hear this - I did you all a favour!

I decided that this year we didn't need that pesky little rabbit delivering delicious chocolate to our door. We didn't need the chocolate frenzy that would have followed. We didn't need the pimples or the stomach ache or the extra kilos!

So I took matters into my own hands. You see I know where that nasty little rodent lives. I sat on a deckchair with a shotgun and simply waited for him to come out of his burrow (pft - last minute Easter shopping I bet!). He emerged, I conquered and he tasted yummy.

Happy chocolate free Easter everybody!

xx The Fat Lady

Going backwards to go forwards....

I'm not going to lie. It's been a bad two weeks.

BAD.

I fell off the wagon, the horses pulling the wagon shit on me then the carriage ran me over.
In these last two weeks of psychological hell I have spent plenty of time staring into space just thinking. I think it was one of these "turning points" (whatever that means) in life. Re-evaluating, assessing, planning, judging - all that crap. So in light of this little epiphany, today - I quit my job. It's a little scary, a little exciting, a little surreal and totally bewildering. Now I'm a student once more and I'm trading stress in a low paying job where I can't get anywhere further to the stress of study, assignments and bludging money from my husband. For me, the change in diet direction had to be met by a total life change.
Its a risk. I can get a job to cover the bills, I can stay where I am and stagnate further. How is furthering my education going to disadvantage me?

Marching on!

Fail

A depressing end to an even more depressing week.

I weighed in today. I managed to put on a few hundred grams, my boobs are bigger, hips and waist are smaller. My body fat count overall is down and overall muscle is up.

Life is getting a little crazy right now and I KNOW I have still been under eating. Between crazy stress, being flat out busy and a jumble of emotional factors, I just haven't been eating enough. That's totally screwing with my metabolism and this morning my immune system has screwed me over and now I can't talk. To top it all off my husband works interstate right now and I haven't seen him in a fortnight and I won't see him for another fortnight.

Sometimes all it takes is having that support network there for you when you need it. This week my support network has fallen to shreds around my feet, leaving me flat to say the least. Here's hoping for a better week next week and maybe not such a depressing post.

Hunger v's Willpower

I'm struggling today. I really am.
I haven't had anywhere near enough food and my stomach is so loud it sounds like it's doing a drum solo. I know, I know - all my fault for not feeding myself enough and now I'm in a pickle. Or I'd love to be munching on one.
Everyone has a favourite take-away joint right? I have 5 and I'm craving something from each and every one. Damn. I finish work shortly and it's going to be one hell of a challenge to drive straight home.

Eek.

Hello Gym, meet The Fat Lady

Tonight was my first solo session at the gym. Well, actually my sister came with me but it was my first real workout session without the supervision of my trainer.

Oh ye trainer, thou shalt be so proud of Lady Fattybumbah.

Believe me he would. My dear sister whom boasts never to sweat, was wiping the sweat off her back after following my little circuit. I just used what I had learnt from my trainer and from what I'd managed to remember during my faster-than-lightning intro session to the gym where we looked at all the equipment and found out that the hell it actually did.
So here was my program for tonight (I'm still shaking a little and my legs are like jelly but I feel gooo-d! And forgive me, I'll get my trainer to correct my terminology after he reads this post.)

10min warm-up on the treadmill
15reps rows
30reps crossovers
15reps rows
30reps crossovers
2min on treadmill (flat out)
15 squats with weights
15 sit-ups
15 squats with weights
15 sit-ups
5min on the elliptical (cross-trainer)
15rep  chest press
(toilet break)
15 rep chest press
5min on the bike
10min cooldown on the treadmill

I think that's it. Now I have to go have some dinner, relax for a little then go to bed ready for work tomorrow at 7am. Oh goodie.